Time, please wait for a while.
I'm not ready for this.
Not ready to leave.
Not ready to miss.

what you don't know wont kill you.

beware of what might destroy you.

everyone has a ghost. a ghost from the past that revisits them once in a while. some keep their ghosts in a tightly shut box with a heavy lid on, others allow them to bring back memories from long ago. fleeting truths that you once believed and held close to your heart. can you tell the difference between darkness and shadows? or are you letting yourself revel in the shades of grey? remember, you cannot put your arms around a memory.

All these wasted hours.
Like a flickering flame in bright light.
Two white moths, you and I.

yesterday i had rare stay home weekend to myself, so i finally watched Norwegian Wood. i think director Anh Hung Tran did a good job with the details in the movie. during the first ten minutes of the movie however, i was rather disturbed by the how strangely, Naoko (Rinko Kikuchi) looks a whole lot like a friend's sister while Kizuki (Kengo Kora) looks like my housemate. besides that, the movie really did refresh all the quotes and memories of the book. in fact, im going to the library to look for it on friday, just to read it all over again. i cannot choose my favourite murakami book, its like asking me to pick my favourite child, a favourite colour; impossible. when i have the space, i will buy them all, just to leaf through the pages and smell the words because im obsessive like that. also, next on my movies-to-watch list is The Scent of Green Papaya by Anh Hung Tran. cant wait!

i have absolutely no idea how to walk in these. but i couldnt resist. /:

i went a little crazy over at the club21 bazaar preview today! (entrance courtesy of moses!) so i got 4 pairs of shoes, 1 wool jacket, 1 flat clutch, 1 lingerie top, 1 knit scarf and 1 knit top. all for a ridiculous amount. sale opens to public this weekend, go check it out!

You know that feeling you get when you wake up in the morning, all bright and sunny after a full eight hours of sleep complete with an extra 10 minutes of snooze time? Like how nothing in the world can dampen your spirits and today is the day you are going out to own it all?

You step into the bathroom and feel the gentle warmth of sunshine seeping though the curtain blinds enveloping every inch of your skin. You stare at your naked body in the gleaming full-length mirror and a little voice inside your head whispers," Hey, you look pretty good for your age. In fact, you might have lost a little of that fat around your tummy area you were concerned about. Wait, you dont just look pretty good, quite fucking fantastic actually." Your hair has just the right amount of volume and bounce, perfect length and no weird kinks curling out the wrong direction. Out-of-bed and after sex hair they call it. But you didnt even have sex last night, you giggle to yourself.

While brushing your teeth in the exact motions your handsome dentist told you that you have been doing perfect your entire life, you casually think about who would you prefer to go on a dinner date with tonight. Tom might know the best places for a glass of red but Harry always makes you feel like you're having a one-to-one private conversation with Cummings himself. Deciding not to be a dick about it, You decide to toss a coin later. There are more pressing matters, like what to wear for lunch with the girls at your favourite tapas place that serves the best Jamón Iberico de recebo. Mmm..

Mornings like these are unfortunately the exact opposite of what I've been having lately. Am down with a terrible cold and feeling like death. Will be back when I am super again!

so today, my housemate just told me that the current tenant at our place will not be leaving behind any furniture for us. so basically, when I move in, it will be a large, empty, cold and unfurnished apartment. i intend to do a massive shopping spree at ikea and get them to send everything over the day i move in. hopefully, nothing requires self assembly. i have ZERO tools. /:

today, i finally threw the letter. YES! this calls for a bottle of red. which i already had yesterday. and ruined my teeth whitening program. /: