7 hours before my flight. i wish i was as excited as everyone else is for me. heart of ice, youre melting too fast too soon.

"Are you scared?" he asked. Touching her hand gently, her fingertips cold as ice. It was a warm Wednesday night. The air humid and thick. She felt strangely chilly, slightly tired but with a little concerted effort, it did not show. "Jack Kerouac once said, nothing behind me, everything ahead of me, as is ever so on the road." she murmured and shifted her weight to the other side. "There is nothing to be afraid of. Especially if you don't know what to be scared of." Looking up at him, the pools of her eyes, black with fear.

one of my favourite shoots:




































pictures courtesy of philo

ive said it and i'll say it again, sherry from ettusais is not only an ettusais nanny (when i was still an ettusais ambassador) but a super helpful and knowledgable brand person (she used to reply/help me with my stories back in beautymap), AND one of the sweetest friend ever!
knowing that i'll be heading over to london soon, she dropped me a text the other day to pop by the ettusais office to bring some goodies home to bring over to the UK. her text invitation was followed by a hand delivered one with a cookie which made my day.
as expected, that sweetheart had prepared the cutest little event for all the ex-ettusais ambassadors to showcase the launch of their new BB mineral powder, BB cream and liquid eyeliner!


sweet treats galore with..


kawaii japanese trainer miss Oki and model Ally,


and a roomful of kitty cats! (all unique and lovingly handmade with eyes drawn using the liquid eyeliner.
with an ultrafine brush and waterproof polymer, you can haz wing-tipped cat eyes all day long!


i love this picture of jayne and i so much! us and the mother of all the kitty cats, "lao chen" (aka, old orange). the most funny and adorable name isnt it?


my stash of goodies and my own little mr teapot!! you have no idea how glad i am with these. i forsee myself rushing for school every morning when im in london and this BB cream will come in super handy. no need for sunblock/primer! smooth over skin after your daily skincare and your base is done! you can dust the BB mineral powder over the BB cream for a matte finish. i prefer to use it for touch ups to combat mid-day shine.

go check them out and "LIKE" ettusais on facebook! they always post the cutest things and pictures of their lovely events for fans! (:

tonight smells like rain. a little musky, a little sweet. the air hangs still and damp, i stick out the tip my tongue and almost taste it. like warm honey, silk and gold. but it's not going to rain, i can tell. it's fifteen minutes to four in the morning. the silence around me gets so loud i can hear nothing, but it. i close my eyes and count the seconds to four. it scares me. my heart beats a little faster, my blood courses through my veins a little quicker. before i can open my eyes, i know it will never feel exactly like this, fifteen minutes to four, Sunday morning in London.

Time, please wait for a while.
I'm not ready for this.
Not ready to leave.
Not ready to miss.

what you don't know wont kill you.

beware of what might destroy you.

everyone has a ghost. a ghost from the past that revisits them once in a while. some keep their ghosts in a tightly shut box with a heavy lid on, others allow them to bring back memories from long ago. fleeting truths that you once believed and held close to your heart. can you tell the difference between darkness and shadows? or are you letting yourself revel in the shades of grey? remember, you cannot put your arms around a memory.

All these wasted hours.
Like a flickering flame in bright light.
Two white moths, you and I.

yesterday i had rare stay home weekend to myself, so i finally watched Norwegian Wood. i think director Anh Hung Tran did a good job with the details in the movie. during the first ten minutes of the movie however, i was rather disturbed by the how strangely, Naoko (Rinko Kikuchi) looks a whole lot like a friend's sister while Kizuki (Kengo Kora) looks like my housemate. besides that, the movie really did refresh all the quotes and memories of the book. in fact, im going to the library to look for it on friday, just to read it all over again. i cannot choose my favourite murakami book, its like asking me to pick my favourite child, a favourite colour; impossible. when i have the space, i will buy them all, just to leaf through the pages and smell the words because im obsessive like that. also, next on my movies-to-watch list is The Scent of Green Papaya by Anh Hung Tran. cant wait!