"Sometimes what seems like surrender isn't surrender at all. It's about what's going on in our hearts. About seeing clearly the way life is and accepting it and being true to it, whatever the pain, because the pain of not being true to it is far, far greater."

hohoho! how was Christmas for all of you? while everyone is eagerly putting up pictures of their own celebration, relieving the festive cheer, here i am, with no pictures at all,with the best ive ever had, in my heart. to put my Christmas in one word, it was "unforgettable". a never ending movie, with seatbelts unfastened. (:

to compensate for the lack of cheesy (and usually bad) pictures taken beside yearly Christmas trees, dangerously lit with extreme high voltages, ive got some here taken during the shoot for gabriel's film.

beware, scary image up ahead! heh.

preperation time

hair and makeup by this adorable girl

this is daryl, remember his face!

your hand?

magan lending himself a helping hand

isnt this a pretty set?? i like!

remembering lines,

can be a bitch. :p

alert! happy people on set!

yup, this is daryl after makeup!

the master and her craft. real looking isnt it?

spray painting toy guns

hanging around brought to a whole new level.
okay, i know im cheesy!

when toys become dangerous

real men use real guns. haha! like real.

gab and brandon reading through the script

act rambo only. heh.

even rambo needs to eat. :p

"oei!"
thats corde, gab's girlfriend (:

army daze
spot the silly!

a tiring but very fun shoot! never regretted doing this shoot. in fact, much thanks to gab for asking me to help out. the best thing was waiting to happen. (:

yup, you guessed it! i havent cut my hair, yet. heh. anywayyy, how is everybody? ive been great! its beginning to look and feel a lot like Christmas and today's combined church service was great, with a nice surprise! i feel very blessed. am really looking forward to Christmas eve. i feel as if ive already gotten the best present already. (:
stay happy all!

dilemma of the day: should i keep my fringe at chin/eyebrow length?

i might be cutting my hair tomorrow. okay, trim. i still would very much want to feel like a mermaid. and i feel like colouring my hair too, but the growing black roots are stopping me. ive only coloured my hair once in my whole life, a couple of years back? DIY! okay fine, my mom helped me, but it was quite an experience. i can talk about a million things i want to do to my hair, bore everyone for the next two weeks and later come to the conclusion that no, my hair is either, too dry, too short yet or just too something. too not-ready-for-anything. and all my grand plans go out of the window. this time, im just going to stick with, "im going to cut my hair."


anyway, i just recieved this adorable picture of my little cousins and i, taken a couple of days back at godmom's for dinner.

brothers, nicholas and josiah.

if you look carefully in the background, we were playing lego. okay, nicky and i did most of the building, jojo mainly destroyed and picked up random pieces to show me. heh, kids. (:

yours and yours alone.

pierre finally uploaded the pictures during the shoot for macdonalds mega mac tvc, here goes!

make up and preperation

notice the black box there?

pierre and i and the extremely cheesy tee shirts

the sniggering buddies

lights

camera

anddd, ACTION!
hahaha! the apple box; my trusty friend.

the terror "girlfriend" strikes!

would you wear this with your girlfriend?

cheesy smile now everyone!

this was a fun shoot! got to work with really nice and friendly people. also, pierre and i were coming up with different languages for the scripted lines. including a very "buay song" (unhappy) hokkien version. i cringe every time i see the commercial, cannot stand the sound of my voice there! its at least an octave higher than how i usually sound. the mandarin version is worse, apparently i look crazy and deranged, according to daion and daniel. havent seen that but dont really wish to. hah. anyway, you can view the commerial here.

meow! how is everyone doing? no i didnt go to zoukout. i am having an extreme craving for pepper lunch's beef pepper rice with lots of garlic honey sauce this instant. the last time i had pepper lunch, ling and i decided to be nice patrons and kindly filled in a couple of feedback forms, anddddd they actually sent her a $10 voucher (which can buy you a beef pepper rice and drink) for her participation. nope, none for me, zero, zlich. why?!

moving on, i think i need a haircut. my "grow-at-the-speed-of-light" hair is getting too awfully long. speaking of which, ive got shoot tomorrow and im sure the makeup artist is going to advise me to cut my hair (again) because its too long and its very hard for her to bun it up etc. although i secretly like this awfully long hair which makes me feel like a mermaid with hair below the breasts. by the way, has any of you noticed that little mermaid or any other not as famous mermaids DO NOT have wet and unglamourously matted hair plastered on their forehead? its ridiculous how their beautiful locks stay dry and luscious even when they emerge out of the waters!

anyway, some pictures of the recent commercial i did with william. yup, both of us did the mega mac commercial for macdonalds too. (the ad which a lot of people did not understand, heh.) and i somehow sounded like a strangled chicken. ):

the al fresco cafe at duxton which the morning shoot was at

very tired us

the purposely messed up room which is #!$?% messy!

okay, im going to cook myself kimchi flavoured instant noodles, not a very good substitute for beef pepper rice i know. not even close! pffft.

it wasnt strong, impulsive and demanding. it came across as something gentler, quieter, warming. you can call it chance encounters, but chance encounters are what that keeps them going, keeps us going in tandem.
fingers interlocking, the world around them was hushed at a little past 1am, the air musky from the evening rain. nothing else felt more right than the warmth against her arm.
so natural, like how the sky would reveal its splendour of colours during sunset. turning darker and darker, painting blue on blue, stroke after stroke, shade after shade, till the spell ends and all the birds in the vast darkness are silenced.
the lack of stars in the sky didnt mean that the cosmic order overlooked this, afterall, they were the only two stars in their infinite universe.

the best i ever had.

have been quite caught up with meet ups and work the past week till blogger's posting page seem almost foreign for a moment. mmm, i finally saw the english version of the ad i did for macdonald's mega mac, after getting texts from friends regurgitating out my screen lines. also, just did another commercial which should hit the screens in january, so watch out for that, and hopefully my mom can tell its me.

read the book daph and rachel got me for my birthday. "The World's Most Puzzling Mysteries Solved, Loch Ness Monsters and Raining Frogs" by Albert Jack. its awesome really, its got tons of common (Bigfoot) and not so common (The Dover Demon) mysteries around the world. the ones i particularly liked were the haunting mystery of "The Chase Vault", "Did Paul Mccartney really die?" and the "Cottingley Fairies".

am quite in the festive holiday mood for Christmas with all of last year's (or two years back) ornaments and decorative whatnot jamming up shop fronts. cant wait for the Christmas goodies. never really fancied turkey though (gobble gobble), they take up too much space in the oven. anyway, enjoy the excitement and an advanced Happy Holidays!